~*Untitled*~

Blah blah blah....
Feel like sighing................... B I G SIGH............................
Don't know why... and feeling a bit emo tonight... oh well... Maybe just meaning that it's time to go to bed.

*_* @_@ T_T -_______________-

~*Bable in Chinese*~

當愛走到盡頭﹐
雙方也不知要說甚麼。

假裝很忙﹐
其實大家不知如可面對。

是為甚麼會這樣﹖
當初大家都不是很愛過嗎﹖

當初不是不能一天不見嗎﹖
為甚麼。。。
當感情到盡頭﹐
就連見到來電顯視的你﹐
都提不起勁去接電話o尼﹖

當步伐不同了﹐
心境也不同了﹐
連夢想。。。
也不同了﹐
話題也不同了。

沒有錯﹐
大家都沒有錯﹐
只是大家都不同了。

以上只是有感以發。。。

~*Rainny Day*~

We are having some heavy rainfall, I have never like rainny days. It is because it always feel so gloomy and lifeless when it rains in Auckland, espcially during Winter. However, during those cold Winter days, my favourite thing to do is to make myself a nice cuppa of coffee and just sit down and read some books. Well, forget about having to drive to work, traffic could be very bad that you just want to curse every living being.

Anyhow, now, with the heavy rainfall, I like it. It feels very cooling. Though I just went outside gave my mum a ride to the grocery store and lunch, it was good to drive around.

Now, back at work. I can play some nice lounge music and blogging at the same time, it just feel so good.

This is why I love working from home and being a ONE MAN office just make life so much better cause I can wear my short and nice comfy t-shirt while I work.



Bring on the rain!~~~

~*Just*~

Just with a pure heart.... believing it is going to work.

~*Give Up or Give In?*~

Ever wonder sometimes things are just not going accordingly to your plan?

Ever come across when things are not turning out as you have expected?

Confused... angry... despair...

Negative thoughts are arising,
Give up?
Enemies are attacking,
Walk away?

Hang on there.

Then breakthrough to break-freeeeee~~

"Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about." (Brett,.R)

~*Come and Go*~

Love come and go,
Maybe...



People come and go,

Definitely...

Sickness come and go,
For sure...

Hatred come and go,
NO,
Because once you have forgiven someone.... it's forever

Opportunities come and go,
Never...
Because once the opportunity has gone... it's gone forever.

~*It's 2am in the Morning*~

I'm sitting on the bed and have the fan turned on to full blast. It's cool enough for me to just sit here and wondering what am I doing here on this hour of the day.

It's 2am in the morning, I have just logged out from Facebook, thinking that it's definitely a wonderful tool ever for year 2008. It helps you connecting with your friends; long lost friends; family members; ex boyfriends/girlfriends (whether you like it or not) and "maybe" your boss. It kinda make the line between privacy and publicity become blurer.

It's 2am in the morning, I just logged in to every blogs that I have been following. It's interesting to read how everyone of us are going through something different EVERYDAY! Some tragic things that might have happened; interesting view on relationships and exciting trips that they have just been to. Publicity greater than privacy...

It's 2am in the morning, it's bed time. But I am refusing to go to bed, only having the only source of light coming from my lap top screen. I am publicly sharing with the rest of the world (or at least to the people who is reading this blog) of my private life.

It's 2am in the morning and it is 7am NZT. I have turned on the ZM streaming. My favourite station in NZ. Listening to the ads and found out that COLDPLAY is going to NZ for a freaking concert!!!!!!!!! I'm down! Seriously! Listening to the news and am still up to date with the weather and news... (I don't miss home... NO I DON't!... sorry I lied...)
It's 2am in the morning, knowing NYE is tomorrow but have nothing planned. It's not like me, so is it going to be a "Have youself a little quiet NYE"..? Ha...

It's 2am in the morning; I am deciding on my New Year resolutions...

~*想念*~

好想念﹐
想念有你們陪伴在我的身邊。。。

好想念﹐
想念我們一起笑﹐一起顛的時刻。。。
不開心的時候﹐
對著你們訴苦。。

不停不停﹐
從復再從復告訴自己﹐
明天會更好~

~*In C Minor*~

Hello flute!

How are you? Sorry I have to abandoned you when I fly. Please blame the mean man at the airport , he doesn't allow me take you with me. (+_+) ~~ Even after I said I am leaving the country for good, he even wanted me to throw you away. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........................

Do not worry, I will be seeing you again in two months time, hopefully by then I can still pick you up and play.

Remember how I picked you up once again after 10 years to start playing. You and I can't even make up a single note. I almost thought something must be stuck in the flute. *laughs*

"When you think it's almost impossible. Determinations and practise make things perfect." -- Chan B, 2008

~*Crap - The Cold*~

Definitely not happy about this.

Got up in the morning with a sore throat, running nose and a headache.
Nothing that I really want to eat and hate to drive to get takeaway so when time is tough, then turn to the instant noodles.
Without any strength of doing anything too mentally consuming, I just watched TV (all day) and do some light chores around the house. Slept more until I desperately need some food not because I was hungry but I was extremely weak... Tough time... Tuna and crackers!! I'm sure this is why I have been stocking up instant food from last weekend...

Crap cold... crap food... and crap mood.. that's what my Saturday have been all about...

Qoute of the day: "The pain is there for a reason, cause you learn from the pain..."

~*Stuck*~

When your planned journey has to come to a stop.... because you are stuck?
I have planned and I have looked forward to. When you thought everything will turn out to be fine and go as plan, other issues will start popping up. Most of the time it's not even your problem, it's always someone else's.


So why the heck has now become my own problem?

Just when you think you are having a nice jounrney...

something happened:
Car stuck in the mud and you can't really do anything until someone come and help you. Honestly, if Im that guy, I would have no idea how to walk away with a smile on the face.

I think this is what I should learn..."smile even if it turns sh$T, coz eventually it will work out..."

~*...*~

Not an angry teenager and certainly have never been one...
But when you are down and emotional then you feel like everyone turns their back on you.

Life has never been easy especially when emotional strikes. I remember when I was at my "sorta" angry teenager years, I have asked my sister about a question "Is it possible that ones can stopped their emotions through surgery?" She said might be possible, from her studies the brain text book has stated that between your left and your right brain there are these thin tissues which provoke emotions and if these tissues are damaged then this person will have no emotions.

At the back of my mind was thinking... "Wow! That's amzing!! Can I have that too?" Then she said, the poorest thing that can happen to a person is to live without emotions, as there will be no happiness; no excitment and no sympathy.

... still I think isn't it the coolest that could happened....

Feeling....

~*My precious weekend*~

Grey skies,
Constant drizzle of rain...

Perfect day to stay inside.
My normal perfect weekend,
Woke up during lunch time,
Then follow with a nice cup of coffee...
Maybe do some light simple chores around the house...
Then go back to my room and start my DVD marathon....

Fighting over car parkings and line up at the checkout is the last thing that I want to do in a wet weekend...

Sorry, I got to admit...

~*The Victory*~

We fought and we might win.
If we have never fight for it, no one will feel sorry for you if you loose.
The nature of human and animal,
We have to stand-up for ourselves and go for what we really want, otherwise your opponent will come in and step into it. THEN you loose.

Every now and then, I feel like I'm living in a competition.
Like the Big Brother reality show?
Using strategies to get rid of your opponents,
create dramas... make noises... defend yourself...

Until, you are the last one out of the house, then you are the winner.

~*happy Valentine's Day*~

Just in time........................

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY....

It's a day all about Love - Roses - Chocolate - Wishes

A day where florists make loads of money, where they have all the right to overprice their roses and flowers and yet still alot of "valentines" buying them. There is one florist in Wellington who has a very unique character. She has refused to sell roses and refuse to do deliveries as she thinks the price is too unfair and hence the deliveries are too demanding in a day. Good on you miss florist! I salute you... Honestly, with my character and my study, the nature of business is to earn money. If there's an opportunity to make money then you have to grab this moment and get the most out of it. In fact miss florist down at Wellington decided not to! This is probably one thing that I can't do...

Anyhow, I'm saying this not because I'm feeling dissapointed with myself that I went to the gym after work, then food shopping and went home open a can of nacho sauce and stick it in the microwave and dah da..... my dinner. No this is not bad at all, you know why? Because car parks are available at the gym with 0mins of waiting (usually the wait is up to 20mins) SCORE~ Then went to food shopping, no waiting in the line... well.. didn't make a difference, coz I was at supermarket at around 8pm. Oh, having my favourite nachos and watching TV at home with no interruptions and no rushing traffic in restaurants SCORE!

No sad talks here... hehehe... Because I have my present...

oooo... it's so pretty!!! :) I always know how to treat myself good... lol (Yea, just another reason to buy myself a gift... kekekek)

This is not all... what actually made my day is the dark chocolate that I got from Joey... *touched* Thank you....

Night out.... Take care...

~*Summer Summer*~

It's the Summer and we should be in the middle of Summer if I'm correct. I love the weather I love the heat. Ok.... it kinda remind me of home, but it's a different kind of heat.

I love Summer as this is the best time of the year. Sometimes I wonder, can we just biffed Winter? haha...

I love Summer is the fact that I can just live with t-shirt, short and jandals.

I love Summer is the fact that it will not increase my apetite.

I love Summer is because everyone seems to a bit happier.

I love Summer because no heavy; thick jacket needs to be worn.

I love Summer is because this is the time of the year that you can enjoy Summer Ale... Yummm... hmmm...

I love Summer is because sunset is at 9pm and sunrises at 5:50am. You have much more sunlight.

During Summer, there's always a reason to take a walk down the road tp get smoothies or fruit juice. hhhmmmm.....

One thing about Summer though, it's I don't have any sunnies and I will look absolutely like a monkey when sun strike.

Oh Summer Summer..... :D

~*Mad mad mad*~

It was just a nice happy morning, packed up my stuff and left home to go to work. At the back of my mind, I kept on t

hinking "oh yes, not long to go until I am back to my homeland." Not like it was a long time ago since I was back. But it was always nice to be with my family again.

Just a normal day with normal tedious trackers and emails to follow up. On top of that, there were chasing boss around and asking for directions for some emergency remedy on new customers' accont. All of a sudden I felt as if someone had poked something hard on my back, as I turned around there was this big knife stabbed through.

This email was from my big boss who never or hardly come intervene with what we do. Then from my own bossy asking why are we holding up contracts. There was a big "HUH?!?!??!" came out from me as isn't that I am the only person with access to these contracts? "WHY DOESN'T THE SALES MANAGER COMES AND TALK TO US? INSTEAD WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO BIG BOSS?" This has got to get real mad, when I said mad... I mean MAD!

So I politely fired off an email then Toni came back and think this is rediculous and fired off an novel long email to bossy. Not that I didn't do my bit, as I have already informed the sales team that they can come to me with anything urgent to approved cause I was really busy and caughgt up with new product and they said it was alright.

Mad is the only word to describe how I feel.

Moral of the story:
1) Some people can just do anything to acheive what they want to, that includes putting someone in a really uneasy situation.

2) Who works with you with and have a conflict of interest- they are not your friends; you are not there to make friends.

3) Rude people-deserve less respects.

4) Try to please your boss without deprive yourselve.

5) Always stand up for yourselves. Never let people take advantage of you.

6) Always covers your back, be sure that you have done everything to covered and not letting other people come back and bite your bottom.

7) When time is a bit rough and tough try taking deep breath before fire off all the nasty words that first come to you mind. Be civilised.

8) Isn't everyone was just live with different masks. You can change your mask at different time of the day in front of different people.

9) Stop moaning and start doing some real work.

10) Smile even though you heart is crying...

~*Not in the bestest mood*~

Please don't take me for granted....
I feel hurt.

Please don't take me for granted...
I feel like a dumb kid being used.

Please don't take me for granted...
I feel I am worthless.

Please don't take me for granted...
I feel like the world is turning it's back on me.

Please don't take me for granted...
I feel like I am a doll being played.

Please don't take me for granted...
Just please don't...

~*short and simple*~

Feeling annoyed,
Feeling like I am out of control...

Is there anyway that I can take things just a little bit easier?

Why can't I just kill my apetite?
Why can't my lovely fat just dies itselfs...

I hate those ants going around, anyway that I can kill them all at once and for all?

Why am I financially tight at the moment?
Why can't I just have a higher pay job?
Why do some people think that I can afford for such things?

Why can't I just leave this place like how many times I have said in the past?
Why do I have to worry so much?

Why can't some people can be more responsible and make my life a bit easier?
Shelfishness.... you are the one who taught me about shelfish...
Laziness... I saw the quality in you....
Ignorance.... is not innocent...

Why and how are the questions that surrounded me...

I HAVE TO BE BRAVE!