~*Directions*~

First ever holiday with nothing attached,
Free and worry-less...

Somehow, life is not being directed,
It gives me a sense of emptiness...

What should I be expected?
Believing in HIS plan for me, so "waiting" is not worthless...

Once again, learn how to trust is needed,
So it will guide me to happiness...

~*Decision...Decision...*~

Ever feel like you have thousands of words wanted to start pouring out from your mouth, but when the right person is there and at the right place; not a single word could come out?

This is all because of trying to make decisions...
When there are options there are chances...
When there are options and chances then you have to make a decision...

Seriously, I have not making any major decisions on my own over the years. All things seem like going according to plan or chance. Being a conservative investor like I am, I have to make sure the decision that I make is the one that is most beneficial.



The options are quite different from each other... It's like...
Do you want a change? Explore into a different lifestyle? Different environment? Face the new challenge? Which might be quite tough... or
Do you want to stay ? Stay with things that you are familiar with and comfortable with? Building confidence and be an expert on the current things?

Once again, I think I am blessed. I have my friends my family who always being very supportive with my decisions... But I'm here... thinking... not sure what to do...

茫然地在想
想像未來會是怎樣

~*Stuck*~

When your planned journey has to come to a stop.... because you are stuck?
I have planned and I have looked forward to. When you thought everything will turn out to be fine and go as plan, other issues will start popping up. Most of the time it's not even your problem, it's always someone else's.


So why the heck has now become my own problem?

Just when you think you are having a nice jounrney...

something happened:
Car stuck in the mud and you can't really do anything until someone come and help you. Honestly, if Im that guy, I would have no idea how to walk away with a smile on the face.

I think this is what I should learn..."smile even if it turns sh$T, coz eventually it will work out..."

~*When it burst*~

When something bursts, usually meaning something has gone wrong...
Thinking of... when trust between two people has ruined that's just nasty.

It's not going to be the same again.

It's hard to keep that trust when one of them is not beleiving in it; when one of them does not hold this value.

Something that I have heard today had make me think and feeling terribly down about it, in fact this is nothing to do with me.

Again, the following phrase pop up again:
"The scars will always be there... it's just not going to be the same again..."

Sad but true... but when it happened, there's no way we can rewind time and prevent it.

~*Something is bothering me*~

I wonder what keeping bothering me as I am having great difficulty falling to sleep at night, my brain is still working. However, I've no idea what I am worrying about. Am I worrying? Or am I trying to plan something?

Weight loss is not so much of a worry as it used to, not that I don't have this problem anymore, but I know something's bigger bothering me.

Looks like it's a mixture of everything. I think I have been living under protection... in a way. I have not been fully developed as a mature adult as I should be. Understanding learning is happening everyday is one thing, when I have to face my disadvantage is totally different story.

You can restructuring a company and I am trying to restructuring myself.