~*Not a New Movie*~

Feel like watching this movie again...




- Touched by the story line -
- An ordinary girl who have a rather unordinary life...

~*Expect the unexpected*~

I do not know what to expect anymore all I have in mind is just a complete mess. WHy couldnt I just be care-less and go for what I want to? Apparently, life doesn't go like this, I can't be careless I can't be unconsiderate.

I can't see things going to fall-out and welcoming people to take advantage...

This totally make me sound like a total control freak and I AM NOT! A lot of the time, I just feel like I couldn't be bother anymore. A lot of us is fear loosing the sense of control when things are out of their hands because there's no one that you can trust except yourself.

~*Biggest Fear*~

Overcome one of you fears is one of the toughest thing to do. THis is just like admiting to one of your sin that you have commited.

When you come to admitting to one of your sin, it's like facing the bad side of you. All of us would like to think that we are the perfect creature and "we" will not make any mistake in our lives let alone commiting a sin.

I have somehow adopted the quality of being a perfectionist... somehow a want-to-be perfectionist, when I came to face my sin, I have this major shiver down my spine. My tears almost roll down my cheek as I can not believe the weight that have been put off once you face the evil side of yourself.

Jealousy, that's my biggest fear. There's nothing worse than having to feel jealous or envy. The feeling was chewing inside my guts and become strengthless; not knowing what to do. Lucky that was years ago and since then I know there's nothing in my life is almost perfect or I should say... nothing more that I could ask for.

There's no point of comparing yourself to anyone. If you are not getting the same amount of love as like the person next to you then please remember you are the only not loving yourself enough.

If you are not getting the same amount of pay like the person opposite you, then please consider the amount of hard work that you have put through.

Therefore, there's nothing to be jealous about and everything happen for a reason.

~*Linkin Park ROCKSss*~

I am still in the post-concert mood and still feeling all hyper despite the concert been two days ago. This is the first concert that I have been and have left me feeling all satisfied and happy.

The hyper have been building up since the 30th July 07 when Fung helped me bought the pre-sale ticket.

The counting down of to the 12th Oct started and it has been seen like a long wait and yes, it was indeed. Finally Linkin Park has come back to AKL since (don't know when)...

Honestly, I am not much of a die-hard fan before as I can't really remember all their songs. However, the "preparation" prior the concert (three dose of Linkin Park per day) have made my affection towards them grow bigger and bigger by days. lol...

The day is finally here!!
Fung and I left work earlier and caught the bus down to the Vector Arena. When we arrived there were about 30+ people lined outside the gate.


Oh yea, first thing that we did as soon as we arrived was to get ourselves a t-shirt each. :) And oh yes, there were heaps of the fans wore their black tee with tight black jeans, with the emotional. I hope I don't look quite out of place... Coz I was too happy and hyper! lol...


We tried to capture our pre-concert look... WE WERE SO READY TO GO INSIDE AND ENJOY OURSEVLES!!! We were actually in the second row from the stage, from past experience I know this will not become a very squashy concert and I know we won't last for the whole show if we are going to stay here.

However, I have told myself that at least I have to take that close glimpse of LP before I give up my spot and go to the back of the crowd.

They opened the show with "Given Up".... awww... Chester sang out Put me out of my miseeeerrryyyy!!! Oh yes!!! CHESTER!!! MIKE!!!! I can see you... and when the second song comes up... I told myself "that's fine... I saw you this close and now I am going to enjoy the rest of my night at the back of the crowd!!" 'LET ME OUT PLEASE...' A strong security guy pulled me out from the crazy crowd and here I come joined Fung!

We have so much... ran outside for a quick beer and we come back for "What I've done"..............

After encho, they came back with "One Step Closer"...Oh my god!!!!!!! That's my favourite song and this time it has drove me crraaaaazyyyy! I was jumping! Screaming!! and shouting out "SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTT UUUUUUUUUUP!!" Throughout the concert the whole place was like a massive choir, everyone sang out loud and we all jumped and screamed!

IT WAS AN AWESOME NIGHT!!

~*Scream*~

I really like the "Last FM" that I have put in last night. Just playing my kind of music isn't it?
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Screaming out loud that's what I really wanted to do.
There are so much that we have to take and so little way for us to let it go.

I can't,
Scream out in the middle of a meeting,
scream out in the middle of working...

However, I can sing out loud while I'm driving,
and scared the person next me.

Sorry for being me that I can't sing,
but thank you for putting up with these...

*~Babble... Babbling*~

Life is full of surprises,
Full of planning and changes...
When you try to make this rhyme,
It takes a lot of your time...

So screw that,
This is going on my own path.
No one can stop me,
Coz I'm my own bossy.

~*Creativity*~

Picked up my drawing pencil,
trying to draw something on my plain drawing sheet...
My mind has gone completely blank,
No set topic...

No rules...
Yet, my mind has nothing pop-up.

Went back to the roots of surrealism,
drew lines across the sheet,
wishing to find some figure which my drawing can be resume.

No more, all I can see is just lines...
It doesn't make sense to me anymore.

No more creativity,
Creativity has been destroy by reality...
Numbers is giving me more meaning than pictures,
It's only words,
the right combinations of the twenty-six letters,
will help bringing the message across.

~*Came off from the pills a day earlier*~

My detox has ended this morning... actually I should have the whole day to go, however, my back pain has got worse during the night. In fact it has affected my sleep, it took me a while to get asleep as I tried to adjust myself to the most comfortable position.

I have received couples of texts during my sleep last night, so everytime I get up and read the texts I have to combat the pain and get back to sleep... and this has drained me.

So I have decided to come off the pill a day earlier, eventhough I am not sure what actually has caused my lower back pain. The pills/the detox might have actually caused it. I have tried to look up in the net and find something to proof this, it looks like SOME people have the same thing happened to them and I found it here.

Alright... maybe time to sleep.... DETOX's OVER! ^__^

~*Day5+Day6 of detox*~

My kidney must have been overworked. Before detox, I drink probably just 700ML per day and during detox I have try drinking 1.5L-2L per day and the whole washing machine flush for my kidney has a bit overworked and I am experiencing a sore lower back pain.

Anyway, it's almost the end of the period and I shall raise my glass of water and say three CHEERS! :) I have become creative on the food that you should take during your detox period.

Ingredients: prawn, carrot, spring onion, celery, tofu, garlic

Pills left for the last day of detox!!!

Day 6 down!!

~*Day 4 Detox*~

Three more days to go, we are actually not doing too bad. Eventhough every now and then some random cravings will occur. Like, pizza/coffee and chips and etc... we still overcome this hurdle.

Now come to day 4, according to my drinking habit I have managed to finished my 1.5L water. HURRAY! :) Thanks to my pretty looking water bottle with a pink cap. lol...

Have a good night sleep last night and I am going to do the same again today. ^__^

Day 4 DOWN!

~*Day 3 Detox*~

I think the hardest time to get through the detox is end of the day... I always crave for food with flavour; with sauce and ideally it's hot food. hhmmmm yum....

The side effect has started to kicked in, these are headaches, tiredness and acne.

I am very tired.... very sleepy... it's not even 10pm... and off to bed...

3rd day....d o w n...

~*2nd Day of Detox*~

I think the pills has actually started giving the effect. Headaches and constant drinking water, like my body is crying out water to wash out the impurities in my body.

I have done 1L of water, this is like one great improvement from yesterday. I have tried grapefruit with youghurt flavoured with honey this morning for my breakfast. Surprisingly yummy and every spoon of it made me feel healthy.

Tuna on crispy for lunch until I find my tuna is a bit dull I put some tobascco sauce to give some flavour.

Fish meal for dinner... not the healthiest or ideal meal for a person who is doing detox. But I have finished all my greens and lots of green tea. The five pills that I took down before dinner wasn't pretty at all... :(

Day 2 down!

~*1st day of Detox*~

Morning: Banana + 5 tablets
Lunch: Salmon on lemon water + greens
Dinner: Fish stir fry (very little oil+sea salt)
Snack: Fruits/unsalted nuts/wheat free; dairy free; gluten free crisp
Evening: 5 tablets

We are thinking of doing a 12hour diet instead of a 7 days. This is not easy at all, especially we love food so much. I am tryig to drink 2lt of water a day, I struggled through my first 500ml, so the first day of detox, I only managed to take maybe "just" 1lt of water.

First day down...