~*Little Drive*~

I have most of my MP3 from my laptop saved to a CD and play it in my car,

I took my jazz music out for a little drive around the beach.

Jazz and sunday afternoon goes so well together,
It's just like cheese and red wine...

So smooth and such an indulgence...

~*Blue Screen*~

My work computer died on my this morning, gave me this fatal blue screen! I didn't how serious it is, until when everyone kinda shook their heads when I mentioned about "blue screen" on my computer.

This is a semi-new computer that I have been given and WHAT WENT WRONG? I was still working on it for the first 10mins I walked in, until I find my computer was slow then I restarted it.

The next thing I know is... b l u e s c r e e n...

So, I get to sit on Toni's computer for the rest of the day and having so much trouble to get myself into the system and do some work.

Wasn't a very good start of the week but I know, tomorrow will be a better day! It will be better!!

~*Detox*~

Detox soon for me! I am now keen on getting rid of that spare tyre round my waist where I don't have to worry that I will ever get drowned...

Alcohol plays a big role on weight gainning, I was very surprised the dramatic change after I have changed my drinking habit. Go the detox!

~*Confusing*~

I have been having thoughts about moving on for ages. I just couldn't come out with a proper plan of "when" "where" "how"...

WHy can't I just pack up my stuff and there I go after my dream, or just go after something that I wanted to complete.

I have unconsciously avoid the long distance call from home, as I know what will be the next question on queue from daddy. Frankly, I have planned to go home, however, I think it's not the time yet. I will move, not home yet, but most probably somewhere closer.

Please give me some time to plan... I am trying to plan....

~*Ramadan*~

It's the fasting month for the muslims, coming from a Muslim country even I am not a muslim but I have been affected in some way.

I miss the food that the stalls are selling along the streets. It's a selections of all kind of savoury and sweet Malay food and they are yum. ^o^~~ During the evening, just before the Muslims "buka puasa" (means that breaking for fast for the day) stalls will be set up along the streets and restaurants would have cooked all the nice yummy food.

I also miss the crowd, where people coming out to the streets to buy food and the food aroma around the air... I know I would have great difficulty trying to communicate with the Malay ladies because they probably would think that I am a foreigner who is trying to join the Muslims crowd. But hey... no... no foreigner, I know what I am getting... :)

~*Why?*~

An 8.4 Ritchter scale earthquake hit Sumantra Island yesterday around 7:15pm Malaysia time. Therefore, Tsunami alerts were on cities and towns around KL, Penang, Perak and Johor. People have asked to stay outside their apartments because of the qauke have also effected these areas.


Just reading the news from "The Star", some Penangites were so "naive" and went out to the promenade and basically "waiting" for the Tsunami hit to come. Do they have any idea that Tsunami is not Moon Eclipse that you can just stand there and watch? Tsunami is not something that you can just stand there and get admire of like the shooting star?

This is just quite sad reading the news, having people going outside with their camera ready to take their first glimpse of the tsunami. Will they think that if there's a tsunami will they ever have the chance to show it to th world? In fact, I am feeling a little bit ashame of sharing this story with my other friends. However, I am mad... I want to express my feeling somewhere... So I have choose to blog it!!! BLOG IT!

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Hey! Do you know how lucky you are standing there without getting hit by the tsuname? How many people were trying to save their own lifes after and during the quake and you!! Yes YOU!! Just standing right there and trying to get killed or injured!

*PHEW*

~*Something is bothering me*~

I wonder what keeping bothering me as I am having great difficulty falling to sleep at night, my brain is still working. However, I've no idea what I am worrying about. Am I worrying? Or am I trying to plan something?

Weight loss is not so much of a worry as it used to, not that I don't have this problem anymore, but I know something's bigger bothering me.

Looks like it's a mixture of everything. I think I have been living under protection... in a way. I have not been fully developed as a mature adult as I should be. Understanding learning is happening everyday is one thing, when I have to face my disadvantage is totally different story.

You can restructuring a company and I am trying to restructuring myself.

~*The Moment*~

Maybe we all need the moment,
the moment that we find ourselves so insignificant.

Maybe we all need the moment,
the moment to appreciate that person been supporting us.

So often because of that moment,
we have lost the patience.
So often and yet not able to control,
we have lost the plot and hurt the one we love.

I want to walk away,
but I am waiting for that moment.

I want to say sorry,
but this is not the time.

Until the moment that we meet again,
please take care of yourselves...
Until we meet again,
I will promise you, I will be good.

~*Getting old*~

It has only been a couple of days ago that was my birthday. Funny that I have noticed the changes that "the age" has done to my life.

First of all, it's the tiredness. I have no idea why I am being so tired for the past three days, it feels just like when your phone battery runs low and it's beeping it's way then as soon as it rings the phone is dead. It is JUST LIKE ME! I can work along with the amount of works that I have in front of me, however, I won't be able to hold a normal crazy conversation that I usually would have convey it with no problem at all.

Secondly, my puffy and dark circled eyes. Well, it just shows... no matter how well you try to cover it.

Thirdly, I just feel like I want to be all by myself. I just want to live in my own little world. Where there's only be ME ME ME! (oops... being self-centered...) Anyway, I started to get easily annoy with things that is not MY WAY!!!


Forthy, short-term and long-term plan starting to make more sense to me now. What do I want to achieve by the age of 30? Also, how do I go about it. I know the realisation has came a little bit slow, at least I am understanding now.

However, there is one thing that will never change me with age. That is the need of feeling being loved....

~*Self-Centered*~

In some way or other everyone is self-centered. We tends to think for ourselves, even though we have believe that we have already been really thoughtful and considerate. However, actions paints a thousand words.

I couldn't say that I have always been considerate, but is kind of sick of people who acted as they are very considerate but really, they are just really self-centred. Never believe in other people; their opinion and their ideas are the best... Maybe not correct as sometimes there will be no right or wrong.

In the past, I have done some personality tests, a couple of them actually commented that I seems like follow other people's shadow around and doing things without my own opinion. However, I would never deprive myself. I like particularly "Never deprive myself"...

Does it means that I am not THAT self-centred? I would love to think that I am this kind of person. However, living in this soceity, I have notice that the ones who are more self-centred and self-praising are more likely to be notice and sometimes more successful in career.

How does this happen? Maybe is the missing of the 'emotional' side when the person wants to get a certain things done. The constant talking down on other people so that they are more outstanding than other people. I'm not a very sucessful person, maybe this is what I have been missing.

This is probably the way to success when you are in the business but certainly not in friendship... As soon as you introduce self-centred in the friendship, it is just going to deteriote it.
Self-centred creates lack of communications --> lack of trust in others or peers --> selfish --> Good luck!

~*Birthday Wishes*~

Today is my birthday and I am very happy...
Maybe the day could be better, however that's enough...
This is just enough.

I have my friends celebrated my birthday with me...

I have my family...

Also friends from work...

I felt blessed with the txts and calls that I have received from everywhere just giving me birthday greetings...

Therefore, I have also included you all in my birthday wishes..