~*Family wedding*~

Yet another family wedding, this time was my cousin Chester's wedding and this time my job has been allocated as being the emcee of the night. Luckily I was accompanied with my other cousin Choon Sze.

This was my first time of being an emcee, I have had presentation experience from the past but not public speaking in front of 400+ guests. This was scary, the preparation started almost 2 months ago, being me seraching and doing a lot of research on the stuff that I can say and also script I download from the net. I thought everything was good until the day was here, I was so nervous and needed red wine to calm me down.

Some of the preparation work the night before the wedding:
The house was so crowded and filled up with about 30+ of us and so glad to see all my cousins and get together. We were preparing our script and wrote on the cube cards.

I was lucky that there was nothing much that I have to do for the morning ceremony so I just get to relax and enjoy the beautiful wedding. Funnily at the same time at the same hotel gardern, there were a group of monks who were accompanied with lion dance, this have actually brought in some culture combinations. Anyway, the wedding has attracted tourists who walked past and join the us to witness the ceremony.

TBC

~*One fine dine*~

What a difference a good dine out has made? I can tell you, it was certainly divine. Danny and I went out for a good dinner tonight as this will be the last time we meet before the end of the year and it's a good time to do some good catch up.

He has always been one person that you can't go wrong with the food and the restaurant he choose. Danny knows all the good food around; Chinese; French;Japanese even pub meal... you name it. So today we went to St. Tropez, a French restaurant. Which has been situated in Parnel for a long time, well at least before my time.

First we walked in with no booking. I was actually a bit worry that they might have to turn us away and have to bring away an 'snobby' face with us. Only then she said she can offer us a table and we have to give it back to them in an hour time. I was thinking, "that's fair enough, as we have not make any booking"

We took about 10mins to decide what's for entree; main and dessert as well as wine, without any forcing pressure from the restaurant manager. Danny and I have been extremely co-operative and taken just enough time to taste our entree. We have chicken liver and French baked snails for entree.... There's only word to describe the taste of these both... exqusite! The chicken liver pate just melt in my mouth... hhmm....

Then come our main course, I have lamb cassarole and Danny has eye fillet steak long with merlot red wine. The combination was good, the first taste of the potatoe mashed was so yummy. All this time, the waitresses has never come and look at our table and see whether or not we have finished and making us feeling uncomfortable. It's then when it's almost dessert time and I don't want to drag on for too long as our one hour almost up and I know if I am the manager the last thing that I want to happen in my restaurant is to have people turn up and not able to have their table ready. So I have asked to have our dessert being served while I nibbling away my lamb cassarole.

Our dessert was French traditional apple pie. First the pastry, it's soft in the middle and crsipy around the side. Then then apple, was not too sweet and have a hint of apple sour which goes really well with the sauce that it serves with. The manager came around and said we can have another 15mins so we don;t have to rush off with the dessert.

So when we went and pay our bill and used the Entertainment card which will give us a 25% discount. The manager kindly said to us that she is sorry that she has to rush us and will not take the discount off from the card (as this is a one-off per card) and instead she gave us a personal 25% discount.

I told her that the whole experience dining in the restaurant was really good. We really enjoyed the food and thanks her for squeezing us in.

Well, you can;t really blame me for being prejudice her for being one of the snobby-up-market restaurant manager who can just get really shitty with us. As I have TOO many far TOO many bad experience with even the best restaunrant in town. But sorry miss manager I was wrong.

So St. Tropez, one good restaurant to dine in and it has given me a happy big smile on my face after a long day at work.

P.S: My mood is getting better... the ants that I have complained before is getting less and less.... thanks to the ants killer that I have bought in supermarket. ALSO... a day closer to HOME TIME. ^o^ Can't wait to see my family again... esp. Little Ariel.

~*This might bring back my smile*~

~*Mad mad mad*~

It was just a nice happy morning, packed up my stuff and left home to go to work. At the back of my mind, I kept on t

hinking "oh yes, not long to go until I am back to my homeland." Not like it was a long time ago since I was back. But it was always nice to be with my family again.

Just a normal day with normal tedious trackers and emails to follow up. On top of that, there were chasing boss around and asking for directions for some emergency remedy on new customers' accont. All of a sudden I felt as if someone had poked something hard on my back, as I turned around there was this big knife stabbed through.

This email was from my big boss who never or hardly come intervene with what we do. Then from my own bossy asking why are we holding up contracts. There was a big "HUH?!?!??!" came out from me as isn't that I am the only person with access to these contracts? "WHY DOESN'T THE SALES MANAGER COMES AND TALK TO US? INSTEAD WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO BIG BOSS?" This has got to get real mad, when I said mad... I mean MAD!

So I politely fired off an email then Toni came back and think this is rediculous and fired off an novel long email to bossy. Not that I didn't do my bit, as I have already informed the sales team that they can come to me with anything urgent to approved cause I was really busy and caughgt up with new product and they said it was alright.

Mad is the only word to describe how I feel.

Moral of the story:
1) Some people can just do anything to acheive what they want to, that includes putting someone in a really uneasy situation.

2) Who works with you with and have a conflict of interest- they are not your friends; you are not there to make friends.

3) Rude people-deserve less respects.

4) Try to please your boss without deprive yourselve.

5) Always stand up for yourselves. Never let people take advantage of you.

6) Always covers your back, be sure that you have done everything to covered and not letting other people come back and bite your bottom.

7) When time is a bit rough and tough try taking deep breath before fire off all the nasty words that first come to you mind. Be civilised.

8) Isn't everyone was just live with different masks. You can change your mask at different time of the day in front of different people.

9) Stop moaning and start doing some real work.

10) Smile even though you heart is crying...

~*Social Club - Laser Strike*~

Yesterday social club at work has organised laser strike night. I SUCK! Big time... I think if I'm going to a war I will be dead by the second I walk in. Being shot not by one but being surrounded by two people and not able to run... >.< It was a fun game after all. There were 9 of us... we have five in the team coz four ladies with one guy and two games. Well, we have improved from the first game though... hehehe... I sweat a lot and it was so much fun.... but I just realised what I have bring with me out of laser strike.

Bruises...

~*Echoing*~

Today as I walk down the stair, we heard someone sobbing at the stairway. This is very unusual then Sam stopped and I stopped as we hope nothing serious happened like someone injured or mental break-down.

Then this sobbing voice "I love you I love you..." she kept on saying the same thing over and over again, trying so hard to get the message across to the receiver's end. Then she said "Nooo..." with the sobbing... She have tried to keep the voice down, but too upset the weeping got louder.

I have no idea what happen there, but I can feel her. Why she kept saying "I Love you" is that because she has nothing else to say, she might have said all the stuff that she said before and the receiver never accepted it. So she said "I love you" and hopefully he gets the meaning... LOVE means: "I can do anything for you."
" You know I mean it. Eventhough you are saying things hurting me I still love you... "

As I walked back to my car, my heart ached. She sounded helpless she sounded despair...

If a man makes you cry and sob like this, he does not worth it.

~*Not in the bestest mood*~

Please don't take me for granted....
I feel hurt.

Please don't take me for granted...
I feel like a dumb kid being used.

Please don't take me for granted...
I feel I am worthless.

Please don't take me for granted...
I feel like the world is turning it's back on me.

Please don't take me for granted...
I feel like I am a doll being played.

Please don't take me for granted...
Just please don't...

~*short and simple*~

Feeling annoyed,
Feeling like I am out of control...

Is there anyway that I can take things just a little bit easier?

Why can't I just kill my apetite?
Why can't my lovely fat just dies itselfs...

I hate those ants going around, anyway that I can kill them all at once and for all?

Why am I financially tight at the moment?
Why can't I just have a higher pay job?
Why do some people think that I can afford for such things?

Why can't I just leave this place like how many times I have said in the past?
Why do I have to worry so much?

Why can't some people can be more responsible and make my life a bit easier?
Shelfishness.... you are the one who taught me about shelfish...
Laziness... I saw the quality in you....
Ignorance.... is not innocent...

Why and how are the questions that surrounded me...

I HAVE TO BE BRAVE!

~*When it burst*~

When something bursts, usually meaning something has gone wrong...
Thinking of... when trust between two people has ruined that's just nasty.

It's not going to be the same again.

It's hard to keep that trust when one of them is not beleiving in it; when one of them does not hold this value.

Something that I have heard today had make me think and feeling terribly down about it, in fact this is nothing to do with me.

Again, the following phrase pop up again:
"The scars will always be there... it's just not going to be the same again..."

Sad but true... but when it happened, there's no way we can rewind time and prevent it.

~*It's Fair*~

Despite I'm not a happy camper this week, but something runs through my mind and keep me thinking. "Fairness" is always an arguable subject, throughout decade after decades men and women been debating over men and women are equal. In actual fact we all know that men and women will not be equal, this is why God made us - MEN & WOMEN.

Then, you always heard people saying "he/she has the looks, has the money and has everything that you want for and why can't I have that?" There might be something that this so-called perfect person is lack of in their life, that there are something that they also long for and will never get it.

One thing that have brought to my attention is that; a person will not have it all. Below... not meant to be rude... but just trying to bring up the point.




He might have the good looks, actually he does have the looks. He might be one of the highest earnings sportsman; he can probably retire from soccer and become a model.
Have you heard him talk? His voice does not matches with his face and just listen to him talking, it kind of feels funny.

Whereas... from the Britain as well, he might not have the look. He might not have the most glamourous job. But when he sings, he lights up the room and bring tears... The humble man
- Paul Potts -



God is fair on everyone of us,
we worth what we are here for.

Never under-estimate yourself,
bring out your true talent,
influence the people around you.

~*Transformer*~

Forty days... 40 days before the day I due back home, yes, again. :) This time is for Chester's wedding. Scary looking how the time is passing by and not able to do something different for myself.

Forty days for me to get ready to get myself ready again to be home. Over the past month, I have gained 1.5KG, part of it was mum's contribution. Being mum was here cooking for us, how can I say no mum's cooking? This is something that I always long for, I even have rice for dinner... wooohooo.... Being dad was here, was accopanied him for yum cha and for some yummy dinner. Of coz, being sis and bro-in-law here, I have brought them around to try out some 'rich-cheesy' western food.

THANKS TO THE FOOD! How can I get rid of the 1.5kg and more? I have this 40 days to shed it doown..

~*Not a New Movie*~

Feel like watching this movie again...




- Touched by the story line -
- An ordinary girl who have a rather unordinary life...

~*Expect the unexpected*~

I do not know what to expect anymore all I have in mind is just a complete mess. WHy couldnt I just be care-less and go for what I want to? Apparently, life doesn't go like this, I can't be careless I can't be unconsiderate.

I can't see things going to fall-out and welcoming people to take advantage...

This totally make me sound like a total control freak and I AM NOT! A lot of the time, I just feel like I couldn't be bother anymore. A lot of us is fear loosing the sense of control when things are out of their hands because there's no one that you can trust except yourself.

~*Biggest Fear*~

Overcome one of you fears is one of the toughest thing to do. THis is just like admiting to one of your sin that you have commited.

When you come to admitting to one of your sin, it's like facing the bad side of you. All of us would like to think that we are the perfect creature and "we" will not make any mistake in our lives let alone commiting a sin.

I have somehow adopted the quality of being a perfectionist... somehow a want-to-be perfectionist, when I came to face my sin, I have this major shiver down my spine. My tears almost roll down my cheek as I can not believe the weight that have been put off once you face the evil side of yourself.

Jealousy, that's my biggest fear. There's nothing worse than having to feel jealous or envy. The feeling was chewing inside my guts and become strengthless; not knowing what to do. Lucky that was years ago and since then I know there's nothing in my life is almost perfect or I should say... nothing more that I could ask for.

There's no point of comparing yourself to anyone. If you are not getting the same amount of love as like the person next to you then please remember you are the only not loving yourself enough.

If you are not getting the same amount of pay like the person opposite you, then please consider the amount of hard work that you have put through.

Therefore, there's nothing to be jealous about and everything happen for a reason.

~*Linkin Park ROCKSss*~

I am still in the post-concert mood and still feeling all hyper despite the concert been two days ago. This is the first concert that I have been and have left me feeling all satisfied and happy.

The hyper have been building up since the 30th July 07 when Fung helped me bought the pre-sale ticket.

The counting down of to the 12th Oct started and it has been seen like a long wait and yes, it was indeed. Finally Linkin Park has come back to AKL since (don't know when)...

Honestly, I am not much of a die-hard fan before as I can't really remember all their songs. However, the "preparation" prior the concert (three dose of Linkin Park per day) have made my affection towards them grow bigger and bigger by days. lol...

The day is finally here!!
Fung and I left work earlier and caught the bus down to the Vector Arena. When we arrived there were about 30+ people lined outside the gate.


Oh yea, first thing that we did as soon as we arrived was to get ourselves a t-shirt each. :) And oh yes, there were heaps of the fans wore their black tee with tight black jeans, with the emotional. I hope I don't look quite out of place... Coz I was too happy and hyper! lol...


We tried to capture our pre-concert look... WE WERE SO READY TO GO INSIDE AND ENJOY OURSEVLES!!! We were actually in the second row from the stage, from past experience I know this will not become a very squashy concert and I know we won't last for the whole show if we are going to stay here.

However, I have told myself that at least I have to take that close glimpse of LP before I give up my spot and go to the back of the crowd.

They opened the show with "Given Up".... awww... Chester sang out Put me out of my miseeeerrryyyy!!! Oh yes!!! CHESTER!!! MIKE!!!! I can see you... and when the second song comes up... I told myself "that's fine... I saw you this close and now I am going to enjoy the rest of my night at the back of the crowd!!" 'LET ME OUT PLEASE...' A strong security guy pulled me out from the crazy crowd and here I come joined Fung!

We have so much... ran outside for a quick beer and we come back for "What I've done"..............

After encho, they came back with "One Step Closer"...Oh my god!!!!!!! That's my favourite song and this time it has drove me crraaaaazyyyy! I was jumping! Screaming!! and shouting out "SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTT UUUUUUUUUUP!!" Throughout the concert the whole place was like a massive choir, everyone sang out loud and we all jumped and screamed!

IT WAS AN AWESOME NIGHT!!

~*Scream*~

I really like the "Last FM" that I have put in last night. Just playing my kind of music isn't it?
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Screaming out loud that's what I really wanted to do.
There are so much that we have to take and so little way for us to let it go.

I can't,
Scream out in the middle of a meeting,
scream out in the middle of working...

However, I can sing out loud while I'm driving,
and scared the person next me.

Sorry for being me that I can't sing,
but thank you for putting up with these...

*~Babble... Babbling*~

Life is full of surprises,
Full of planning and changes...
When you try to make this rhyme,
It takes a lot of your time...

So screw that,
This is going on my own path.
No one can stop me,
Coz I'm my own bossy.

~*Creativity*~

Picked up my drawing pencil,
trying to draw something on my plain drawing sheet...
My mind has gone completely blank,
No set topic...

No rules...
Yet, my mind has nothing pop-up.

Went back to the roots of surrealism,
drew lines across the sheet,
wishing to find some figure which my drawing can be resume.

No more, all I can see is just lines...
It doesn't make sense to me anymore.

No more creativity,
Creativity has been destroy by reality...
Numbers is giving me more meaning than pictures,
It's only words,
the right combinations of the twenty-six letters,
will help bringing the message across.

~*Came off from the pills a day earlier*~

My detox has ended this morning... actually I should have the whole day to go, however, my back pain has got worse during the night. In fact it has affected my sleep, it took me a while to get asleep as I tried to adjust myself to the most comfortable position.

I have received couples of texts during my sleep last night, so everytime I get up and read the texts I have to combat the pain and get back to sleep... and this has drained me.

So I have decided to come off the pill a day earlier, eventhough I am not sure what actually has caused my lower back pain. The pills/the detox might have actually caused it. I have tried to look up in the net and find something to proof this, it looks like SOME people have the same thing happened to them and I found it here.

Alright... maybe time to sleep.... DETOX's OVER! ^__^

~*Day5+Day6 of detox*~

My kidney must have been overworked. Before detox, I drink probably just 700ML per day and during detox I have try drinking 1.5L-2L per day and the whole washing machine flush for my kidney has a bit overworked and I am experiencing a sore lower back pain.

Anyway, it's almost the end of the period and I shall raise my glass of water and say three CHEERS! :) I have become creative on the food that you should take during your detox period.

Ingredients: prawn, carrot, spring onion, celery, tofu, garlic

Pills left for the last day of detox!!!

Day 6 down!!

~*Day 4 Detox*~

Three more days to go, we are actually not doing too bad. Eventhough every now and then some random cravings will occur. Like, pizza/coffee and chips and etc... we still overcome this hurdle.

Now come to day 4, according to my drinking habit I have managed to finished my 1.5L water. HURRAY! :) Thanks to my pretty looking water bottle with a pink cap. lol...

Have a good night sleep last night and I am going to do the same again today. ^__^

Day 4 DOWN!

~*Day 3 Detox*~

I think the hardest time to get through the detox is end of the day... I always crave for food with flavour; with sauce and ideally it's hot food. hhmmmm yum....

The side effect has started to kicked in, these are headaches, tiredness and acne.

I am very tired.... very sleepy... it's not even 10pm... and off to bed...

3rd day....d o w n...

~*2nd Day of Detox*~

I think the pills has actually started giving the effect. Headaches and constant drinking water, like my body is crying out water to wash out the impurities in my body.

I have done 1L of water, this is like one great improvement from yesterday. I have tried grapefruit with youghurt flavoured with honey this morning for my breakfast. Surprisingly yummy and every spoon of it made me feel healthy.

Tuna on crispy for lunch until I find my tuna is a bit dull I put some tobascco sauce to give some flavour.

Fish meal for dinner... not the healthiest or ideal meal for a person who is doing detox. But I have finished all my greens and lots of green tea. The five pills that I took down before dinner wasn't pretty at all... :(

Day 2 down!

~*1st day of Detox*~

Morning: Banana + 5 tablets
Lunch: Salmon on lemon water + greens
Dinner: Fish stir fry (very little oil+sea salt)
Snack: Fruits/unsalted nuts/wheat free; dairy free; gluten free crisp
Evening: 5 tablets

We are thinking of doing a 12hour diet instead of a 7 days. This is not easy at all, especially we love food so much. I am tryig to drink 2lt of water a day, I struggled through my first 500ml, so the first day of detox, I only managed to take maybe "just" 1lt of water.

First day down...

~*Little Drive*~

I have most of my MP3 from my laptop saved to a CD and play it in my car,

I took my jazz music out for a little drive around the beach.

Jazz and sunday afternoon goes so well together,
It's just like cheese and red wine...

So smooth and such an indulgence...

~*Blue Screen*~

My work computer died on my this morning, gave me this fatal blue screen! I didn't how serious it is, until when everyone kinda shook their heads when I mentioned about "blue screen" on my computer.

This is a semi-new computer that I have been given and WHAT WENT WRONG? I was still working on it for the first 10mins I walked in, until I find my computer was slow then I restarted it.

The next thing I know is... b l u e s c r e e n...

So, I get to sit on Toni's computer for the rest of the day and having so much trouble to get myself into the system and do some work.

Wasn't a very good start of the week but I know, tomorrow will be a better day! It will be better!!

~*Detox*~

Detox soon for me! I am now keen on getting rid of that spare tyre round my waist where I don't have to worry that I will ever get drowned...

Alcohol plays a big role on weight gainning, I was very surprised the dramatic change after I have changed my drinking habit. Go the detox!

~*Confusing*~

I have been having thoughts about moving on for ages. I just couldn't come out with a proper plan of "when" "where" "how"...

WHy can't I just pack up my stuff and there I go after my dream, or just go after something that I wanted to complete.

I have unconsciously avoid the long distance call from home, as I know what will be the next question on queue from daddy. Frankly, I have planned to go home, however, I think it's not the time yet. I will move, not home yet, but most probably somewhere closer.

Please give me some time to plan... I am trying to plan....

~*Ramadan*~

It's the fasting month for the muslims, coming from a Muslim country even I am not a muslim but I have been affected in some way.

I miss the food that the stalls are selling along the streets. It's a selections of all kind of savoury and sweet Malay food and they are yum. ^o^~~ During the evening, just before the Muslims "buka puasa" (means that breaking for fast for the day) stalls will be set up along the streets and restaurants would have cooked all the nice yummy food.

I also miss the crowd, where people coming out to the streets to buy food and the food aroma around the air... I know I would have great difficulty trying to communicate with the Malay ladies because they probably would think that I am a foreigner who is trying to join the Muslims crowd. But hey... no... no foreigner, I know what I am getting... :)

~*Why?*~

An 8.4 Ritchter scale earthquake hit Sumantra Island yesterday around 7:15pm Malaysia time. Therefore, Tsunami alerts were on cities and towns around KL, Penang, Perak and Johor. People have asked to stay outside their apartments because of the qauke have also effected these areas.


Just reading the news from "The Star", some Penangites were so "naive" and went out to the promenade and basically "waiting" for the Tsunami hit to come. Do they have any idea that Tsunami is not Moon Eclipse that you can just stand there and watch? Tsunami is not something that you can just stand there and get admire of like the shooting star?

This is just quite sad reading the news, having people going outside with their camera ready to take their first glimpse of the tsunami. Will they think that if there's a tsunami will they ever have the chance to show it to th world? In fact, I am feeling a little bit ashame of sharing this story with my other friends. However, I am mad... I want to express my feeling somewhere... So I have choose to blog it!!! BLOG IT!

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Hey! Do you know how lucky you are standing there without getting hit by the tsuname? How many people were trying to save their own lifes after and during the quake and you!! Yes YOU!! Just standing right there and trying to get killed or injured!

*PHEW*

~*Something is bothering me*~

I wonder what keeping bothering me as I am having great difficulty falling to sleep at night, my brain is still working. However, I've no idea what I am worrying about. Am I worrying? Or am I trying to plan something?

Weight loss is not so much of a worry as it used to, not that I don't have this problem anymore, but I know something's bigger bothering me.

Looks like it's a mixture of everything. I think I have been living under protection... in a way. I have not been fully developed as a mature adult as I should be. Understanding learning is happening everyday is one thing, when I have to face my disadvantage is totally different story.

You can restructuring a company and I am trying to restructuring myself.

~*The Moment*~

Maybe we all need the moment,
the moment that we find ourselves so insignificant.

Maybe we all need the moment,
the moment to appreciate that person been supporting us.

So often because of that moment,
we have lost the patience.
So often and yet not able to control,
we have lost the plot and hurt the one we love.

I want to walk away,
but I am waiting for that moment.

I want to say sorry,
but this is not the time.

Until the moment that we meet again,
please take care of yourselves...
Until we meet again,
I will promise you, I will be good.

~*Getting old*~

It has only been a couple of days ago that was my birthday. Funny that I have noticed the changes that "the age" has done to my life.

First of all, it's the tiredness. I have no idea why I am being so tired for the past three days, it feels just like when your phone battery runs low and it's beeping it's way then as soon as it rings the phone is dead. It is JUST LIKE ME! I can work along with the amount of works that I have in front of me, however, I won't be able to hold a normal crazy conversation that I usually would have convey it with no problem at all.

Secondly, my puffy and dark circled eyes. Well, it just shows... no matter how well you try to cover it.

Thirdly, I just feel like I want to be all by myself. I just want to live in my own little world. Where there's only be ME ME ME! (oops... being self-centered...) Anyway, I started to get easily annoy with things that is not MY WAY!!!


Forthy, short-term and long-term plan starting to make more sense to me now. What do I want to achieve by the age of 30? Also, how do I go about it. I know the realisation has came a little bit slow, at least I am understanding now.

However, there is one thing that will never change me with age. That is the need of feeling being loved....

~*Self-Centered*~

In some way or other everyone is self-centered. We tends to think for ourselves, even though we have believe that we have already been really thoughtful and considerate. However, actions paints a thousand words.

I couldn't say that I have always been considerate, but is kind of sick of people who acted as they are very considerate but really, they are just really self-centred. Never believe in other people; their opinion and their ideas are the best... Maybe not correct as sometimes there will be no right or wrong.

In the past, I have done some personality tests, a couple of them actually commented that I seems like follow other people's shadow around and doing things without my own opinion. However, I would never deprive myself. I like particularly "Never deprive myself"...

Does it means that I am not THAT self-centred? I would love to think that I am this kind of person. However, living in this soceity, I have notice that the ones who are more self-centred and self-praising are more likely to be notice and sometimes more successful in career.

How does this happen? Maybe is the missing of the 'emotional' side when the person wants to get a certain things done. The constant talking down on other people so that they are more outstanding than other people. I'm not a very sucessful person, maybe this is what I have been missing.

This is probably the way to success when you are in the business but certainly not in friendship... As soon as you introduce self-centred in the friendship, it is just going to deteriote it.
Self-centred creates lack of communications --> lack of trust in others or peers --> selfish --> Good luck!

~*Birthday Wishes*~

Today is my birthday and I am very happy...
Maybe the day could be better, however that's enough...
This is just enough.

I have my friends celebrated my birthday with me...

I have my family...

Also friends from work...

I felt blessed with the txts and calls that I have received from everywhere just giving me birthday greetings...

Therefore, I have also included you all in my birthday wishes..

~*Feeling Blessed*~

Sometimes I have cried out for help,
In times, I feel helpless...

Sometimes I need some kind of recognitions,
But what is there to be reviewed...

I might not be the smartest person,
I may have over expected myself...

However, I am feeling blessed... blessed because of being simple...
Being an ordinary person...

~*Friendship - One priceless gift*~

Friendship is such a wonderful thing...
That is that mutual respects and love that build up the friendship.

Those long talks and those laughter that we have shared,

Those tears that we have shed,
Have made us grow closer.
There is nothing that we have to hide...

We can even share our ugliest and most embarass moments...

I LOve you GALS...

~*List it*~

I am trying to make a list of what I have learnt and stuff that I have picked up all these years....

Things I might have just realised...

Funny how some of these things have shocked me.... So before I hit my upcoming birthday, I am trying to list down what are the important things that I have learnt all these years.

I have learnt how to appreciate my daddy and mummy... Not sure whether it's because of the teenage hormones that I used to have when I was 15/16... I used to think that "NO ONE LOVES ME...." "WHY AM I HERE.." and etc...
I thought that they do no love me as I have left to stay in NZ in such a young age.
But, after a major failure. I have learnt your parents will always give you unconditional love. Even I have started giving up on myself... they just supported me. They have never blame me for my failure, even though I have scolded myself over and over again....
At that moment, I know, there will be no one in this world who can accept all your disadvantage and still loves you unconditionally other than your daddy and mummy.
To the both of them:"I respect you, cause you have trusted me in so many ways... I will not let you down again..."

~*Maybe they do exist*~

I believe angels do exist....







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~*The beginning*~

I like the begining, I judge a song at it's prelude.
I judge a movie by the theme song.
I judge a book by it's cover...

The beginning is a prelude to a journey,
The journey where a song will lead you to tears or dance.
The jouney where a movie gives you laughter and inspirations.
The journey where a story of a book will lead your mind to a different directions.

Journey... it's all about what you lost or gain throughout this wonderful route.