~*For you*~

Years almost over
Sure looks like December
The snow and ice on the ground
I hadn’t sent a single Christmas card
The 31st is coming around
It makes me remember our last December
How the city looks so beautiful in white
As we walked the street that day you kept me warm
We couldn’t wait to get inside

Now its Christmas and you’re so far away
On this Christmas I just wish you had stayed
And I wonder if you’re thinking of me today
I don’t know what I’ll do its not Christmas without you

I hear carols in the distance
Don’t want to listen because every sound says your not here
Just in case you change your mind I’ll leave a light over the door
And hope you suddenly appear

Cuz its Christmas and you’re so far away
On this Christmas I just wish you had stayed
And I wonder if you’re thinking of me today
I don’t know what I’ll do its not Christmas without you

I’m to old too old to believe in Santa Claus
What are these gifts under the tree
But I did this once
Or many it’s a dream, has he really brought you back to me
its Christmas all I wanted is here
On this Christmas was for you to be near
And I wonder if you’re thinking of me cuz you’re here
My one wish has come true, it’s not Christmas without you

~*One of those days*~

Down dooooown dooooooown....
Despite how much I am trying to lift myself up,
Despite with all the effort that I'm trying to tell myself
"It's ok...."
But I am still...............DOWN......

It's ok... I know it's ok...
Just like how the song goes... "well if you never try... you'll never know... just what you're worth.... lights will guide you home and ignite..... your bones and I will try... to fix you..."

ha.... my favourite song of all time + my favourite show!

...I Promise... I will learn from my mistakes.....

~*CRY OUT LOUD*~

I want to cry out telling HIM "LORD, MAY YOU LIFT UP MY SPIRIT!!!"

~*Untitled*~

Blah blah blah....
Feel like sighing................... B I G SIGH............................
Don't know why... and feeling a bit emo tonight... oh well... Maybe just meaning that it's time to go to bed.

*_* @_@ T_T -_______________-

~*you think...*~

Have not been moaning and whining here for a while and just feel like whine a bit today...

There are a lot of times in our lives we are expecting something, maybe openly, publicly or some expectations in disguise. However, there are a lot of times when this expectations fail and we get dissapointed.

What if? These dissapointments keep occuring and these are coming from some of the people that are closest to you? Well, I do not know if whether any research or facts show that dissapointments will cause any heartache or hurt feelings? But, it certainly is doing some degree of damage to the feelings to the heart.

Just when "you think", this person will stand beside you when you needed supports, then you turned around, this person is standing on the opposite side.

Just when "you think", this person will say some encouraging words to you when you needed that lift after a failure. Instead this person might be giving you another step on the head.

Just when "you think", this person will put a hand on your shoulder instead of a hug to give you comfort when you are logging to feel that you are being loved. Instead maybe a slap across the face... (not literally but it's a metaphor)

Just when "you think"! Tough luck... toughen up yourself better than being soft cookies waiting to be pampered... You think la!

~*NO TIME*~

Oh my oh my!! Seriously no time! I have no time to sleep... No time to watch my favourite TV show, No time to catch up with family and friends... No time to do any excercise and no time to eat. Crazy huh?

I know the worse is still yet to come. The month of April will just be concentrating with my Bridal Fair coming up end of the month. For the first week of the month I should just finalise all design and programme and ad should all be coming out on the second week.

But you know what? All the effort and time that comes with passion to work will be rewarded in the future! I BELIEVE!!

This is because - I can't wait for the trip to go to SH in May!!!!! :D

~*Day 1 - Realised the Need Of It*~

Last night was an odd night, the room have became so warm and humid at about midnight and totally woke me up with a sense of uneasy. I got up and gulp down a glass of water and went for a shower then go back to sleep. Just before the break of dawn, an upset tummy once again woke me up from my deep sleep.

So, instead of falling back to sleep I got up and read the book and also the bible. I also prayed, as I prayed, the word "fast and pray" flashes. Of course, I got to break the bond of weakness and a clear mind when I'm asking direction from God. So I fliped back to my notes on where Pastor preached on fast and pray.

It was mentioned that we need to be physically and spiritually preparedand for the fasting period that I have engaged to.

And Now I'm ready! :)